Not The End but...

I still don’t believe that we are not together anymore. Just like I use drugs and all just happened, without permissions and the pain is so true. Not believe. But it happened. How to explain it? Everyone still ask me about you to me. At school when I want to go to home someone like we used to meet in the parking area said 

‘hey Mrs. *****’

I just giggle... dunno what I have to do.

When all my friends ask about you, like ‘where are you? Is he already here? Text him please’ not only once, I just can smile. Met your mom, oh Gosh!!! Long time no see! I miss her so much. I miss your little brother, your brothers, your cousins, you family, especially you. Badly. I now it’s too over but just a few days, you and me aren’t together anymore I feel it’s so long. Each day was so slow. My mood was so bad especially to eat, just need like chocolate. I miss every little thing we have done. I still can see every little part what we have been trough. Every first we made. Can you feel it? It is so silly. My silly life.

:(

 I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone

-craig david-

Missing Someone Can Motive You on Negative of Thinking

 

Just wanna share on this post, on this week I just felt miss someone. That person is so close with me, really close but I felt he isn’t there. With me. Beside me. I was busy with my mind when I was beside him... it’s because I feel something less, like he is in other place. So far. When I miss him but I can’t beside him so.... negative side on my mind comes.. Just prove that he didn’t want me with him. Just think that he needs time without me. I know it’s really bad but I felt so true. I was on tears this week. So tired. Not because he makes mistake but it just happened by myself. Because I miss him too much. I know something that ‘too much’ is really bad but I don’t know how control it. 

Pretend to don’t care?

New Story of us

                I just can say sorry because I was too busy and I can’t give you something special like any couples always do on their anniversary day. And then, on that day I went to home after school so, we didn’t celebrate our day, because we still on the final test. And now, I just can give this a small thing for you. Not a thing that you can hold it but you can remember it by looks my blog (forever). Happy Anniversary by the way two days ago or one day ago.... (just you and me who understand this statement LOL)

I wish in this month.....

We could stick together

We could understand each other

We didn’t have to argue something that is not important

Our relationship become better each day...

When me and rain be a part

This is so simple to say, think about everything on your mind and you can explore all you have thought. I don’t know what I want to write on this post but, just want to say my feeling in my heart and also in my mind. Now is raining here, it is so romantics moment.  Feeling lonely here, me.. In my home. No one here with me just an old computer with internet which is truly accompany me. Realizing, I feel something less and feel nothing here, although the moment is so romantic I can’t feel it like it is.

Actually, I don't know. What is romantic like? Always something like candlelight dinner or a big bucket with red flowers? I’m not goody, sometimes I want those all things in the same moment but yeah, this is so tragic that I’m so pushy. I don’t be like that. I’m so bad right now and so weak, with a slice of bread and a box of ice cream my mood can be higher on each mouthful. It’s bad to my weight but I need those things like this... no reasons just right now. Please let me eat lol

A simple one is how to be happy right now just close your eyes and thinking your friends still love you, your family are complete, your best friends are missing you, and someone special in your heart still be in your heart although you know he/she isn’t doing the same, but it’s good you have a crush on him/her. Be grateful  you have everyone who can motivate you on your life.