I:" kalo jadi cewe harus kayak gtu dong a,b,c,d,......"

benar.semua yg gak ada di gue.

semua masuk ke otak.

God, what do you think about me? What I will be in the future? What I suppose to be? Or what I have to do to know my ability exactly?

 whispered. 

My 18th Birthday!!

Actually it happened on first of March but just now I can tell about my 18^th birthday. Here we go!

First of all I waited some messages from my best friends on that day but unfortunately I didn’t get. It was so bad. I think they will say happy birthday to me at school. But still didn’t get that greet from my close friends. My best friends and I have a plan to eat in somewhere and yups I have to treat them. That’s okay because it will be the last in senor high school. I came to the place that we had planned before and suddenly they give me the surprise on my birthday!! A simple thing but thanks everyone I love the present  :*

They (Ika,Rayi,Nanda) give me a cake :)

thank you so much I'm really grateful to have all of you guys :D

They give me a beautiful light, I would not be afraid again when the light on my room is turn off. Thanks also to Andra who also give his money to buy it with my beloved girls.

I also got this, thanks umes. A simple one but yeah i love it :)

A pencil case from my bilingual's friend that was on my junior high school

thanks for Ihsan Maula who bring me to this present lol

This is my last project for my Japanese lesson :')

this is the last Japanese project in my high school, truly i made many mistakes lol
enjoy it :)

Many Reasons Why I Choose This Decision

A lot differences between you and me right now, so far and can’t handle anymore..

I hold you too much, you step back forward

I text you many words, you reply on one word

I need you so much, you can stand up by yourself

I always tell you my dreams and wait you ask about it, you just don’t care

I miss you so badly, you just pretend like you don’t

I was jealous too much, you still didn’t care

I was standing there beside you, you just walked away with your friends

I don’t wanna be like her, you wish I could be like he

I was angry, you just pretend like you didn’t know about it

I made you angry, I always afraid that you angry with me and I lost you

Happy Anniv 3rd month

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Not The End but...

I still don’t believe that we are not together anymore. Just like I use drugs and all just happened, without permissions and the pain is so true. Not believe. But it happened. How to explain it? Everyone still ask me about you to me. At school when I want to go to home someone like we used to meet in the parking area said 

‘hey Mrs. *****’

I just giggle... dunno what I have to do.

When all my friends ask about you, like ‘where are you? Is he already here? Text him please’ not only once, I just can smile. Met your mom, oh Gosh!!! Long time no see! I miss her so much. I miss your little brother, your brothers, your cousins, you family, especially you. Badly. I now it’s too over but just a few days, you and me aren’t together anymore I feel it’s so long. Each day was so slow. My mood was so bad especially to eat, just need like chocolate. I miss every little thing we have done. I still can see every little part what we have been trough. Every first we made. Can you feel it? It is so silly. My silly life.