I still
don’t believe that we are not together anymore. Just like I use drugs and all
just happened, without permissions and the pain is so true. Not believe. But it
happened. How to explain it? Everyone still ask me about you to me. At school
when I want to go to home someone like we used to meet in the parking area said
‘hey Mrs. *****’
I just giggle... dunno what I
have to do.
When all my
friends ask about you, like ‘where are you? Is he already here? Text him
please’ not only once, I just can smile. Met your mom, oh Gosh!!! Long time no
see! I miss her so much. I miss your little brother, your brothers, your
cousins, you family, especially you. Badly. I now it’s too over but just a few
days, you and me aren’t together anymore I feel it’s so long. Each day was so
slow. My mood was so bad especially to eat, just need like chocolate. I miss
every little thing we have done. I still can see every little part what we have
been trough. Every first we made. Can you feel it? It is so silly. My silly
life.
I know, I have so many mistakes
that you can't face it anymore. You were tired of me. I feel sorry for hurting
you. Sorry. I have try but maybe I’m not good enough for you. Feel so sorry. If
I could go back to the day that we had fought, I wouldn’t do a silly thing like
that. Do you know our plan on holiday? Did you still remember? ‘Drive’ lol when
my house is nobody be there, where I have to go? And stay? My neighbors? You
know that they were in other city. I used to be with you. Although just 2
months, I feel it’s so many stories from there.Watching
the first movie on the first date like just yesterday.
You can survive with your friends and your
cigarettes, and how about me? Friends? And what? It’s not fair hahaha so that’s
why I wanna be your cigarettes, you always need it every day, every time. Every
time you feel lonely or you need someone that can be with you just ask to me
and I will be there. I will not being stupid like yesterday. Regret? Yes I
regret it to make you hurt.
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